Here we are on December 27, 2022 more than a year ½ since my last blog post. Oops, my bad for that. 2022 truly came and went pretty fast. I guess you don’t feel time when you’re having fun.
This year was filled with many blessings and I am forever thankful for that. I pray that the year to come brings many new blessings and many beautiful moments.
I have been debating for the last week whether I should write this post or not and as you can see I have decided to do it after I got this email from the past that I wrote in the future at that time. I hope that whoever reads this finds hope and peace just as I have.
If you know me I live a pretty full life. I love my life,I truly do but I also know there is a sweetness in sharing this beautiful life with someone you get to grow with. So for the past few years one of my deepest prayers has been to meet my future husband. I think it’s a desire that any young woman would have at my age. It was truly such a sweet moment to see that even in the waiting I have decided to be content in the season I am. To LOVE GOD and LOVE PEOPLE,to LIVE.LOVE.TRAVEL, and to work on healing, on growing and challenging myself, on preparing for whatever God has in store for me. I’ve got to say this journey has been up and down. When you’re intentional about becoming more like Jesus, loving like Jesus there’s a pain of dying to self that comes with it. Just to give you an example, it’s really hard to ask for forgiveness but it is necessary, obviously it’s easier to not care and move along. It has taken me lots of swallowing my pride to be comfortable with asking for forgiveness,and that is what I mean, to look like Jesus who forgives and that asks us to forgive 70×70 (always) is not easy and it requires obedience. Before I go off on a tangent, all that to say.. I’m doing the work as I wait and that truly is what brings contentment. Knowing that even though my desire for a husband and life partner is not being fulfilled now, my growth in relationship with my God is .
On Christmas Day 2022 I received a letter I wrote to myself on December 25th, 2021. I had forgotten about this but it was so sweet to read it and thank God I did. It’s self explanatory and the reason for my post.
My future husband is not here ( or at least I don’t know it yet) but I do know what God is working and it can happen at any moment and it will be the most perfect moment. I know that just as God is preparing me, He is preparing him too.
SO if you are waiting on something, maybe it’s not a husband , maybe it’s a job, a baby, a home, anything you desire, know that God is working. Trust that while He is working you can rest knowing that He has everything under control. He hasn’t forgotten about you. But as you wait, I invite you to get ready while He is working. Learn that skill, save that money, go to therapy and heal your trauma.
Much love,
Natalie
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